我告诉我自己一定要撑下去
我告诉我自己一定要走下去
可是
为了什么
奋斗了几年
骇然发现自己没有
明确的目标
为了奋斗而奋斗
为了坚持而坚持
没有目标
随波而流
现在的我
不像以前那么单纯
但像一池止水
风过无痕
也没有什么牵挂了
倒下去
只怕医药费太贵
死去
还是怕下地狱
（没错，这是让我生存的其中一个理由，至少我还有机会做善事来上天堂）
（可是我也不想上天堂，只希望死了之后，什么都被删除）
仍然等着你的回复
仍然等着你的答案
你却无视我的等待
刚刚做了智商测试，得分155，准确度令人质疑
再高，对我来说，也没有什么令人振奋了
June 16, 2009
May 24, 2009
May 16, 2009
Rich. Evil.
"Man will turn evil when he becomes rich"
“男人有钱就变坏”
Guess this saying is not ridiculous.
I once imagined myself becoming rich.........
The first thing I will do... is to eliminate those I hate...
Maybe I will hire an assassin
Or an arsonist
Then I will demolish what I don't like
Then I will buy what I want...
Wow, that's nice, only if I am rich.
“男人有钱就变坏”
Guess this saying is not ridiculous.
I once imagined myself becoming rich.........
The first thing I will do... is to eliminate those I hate...
Maybe I will hire an assassin
Or an arsonist
Then I will demolish what I don't like
Then I will buy what I want...
Wow, that's nice, only if I am rich.
May 8, 2009
So what?
Yes
I don't want to study
So what?
I want to watch TV
So what?
I hate autocracy
I hate overdemanding
I hate controlling
I don't want to study
So what?
I want to watch TV
So what?
I hate autocracy
I hate overdemanding
I hate controlling
April 20, 2009
Sudden
Suddenly I am in the Malay Debate Competition, and it's on next Monday =.=
"Rakyat Berminda Kelas Pertama Tunjang Kegemilangan Negara"
Do you agree with that statement?
I hereby announce that I need your help!!
"Rakyat Berminda Kelas Pertama Tunjang Kegemilangan Negara"
Do you agree with that statement?
I hereby announce that I need your help!!
April 14, 2009
Am I the Extra One?
I feel like my presence is worthless. The world doesn't change a bit without me.
Tired, and sad.
Tired, and sad.
I am grey
I am a greedy, realistic and materialistic person. And I don't think you need me to explain that. It's not easy to change. Everyone has their own perspective of life. I am the kind of people who will have to work hard to survive and thrive.
I will regard my colour of life as grey. My life is not really colourful, and I can say most of my memories are dull. Do you think strong memory is a good thing? Not really. I can still remember a lot of horrible things. Unforgettable.
— Common connotations of grey —
boredom, reality, seriousness, neutrality, dullness, mediocrity, undefinedness, and contentment
Tired life, whatever it's, life still goes on. What a sad fact.
I will regard my colour of life as grey. My life is not really colourful, and I can say most of my memories are dull. Do you think strong memory is a good thing? Not really. I can still remember a lot of horrible things. Unforgettable.
— Common connotations of grey —
boredom, reality, seriousness, neutrality, dullness, mediocrity, undefinedness, and contentment
Tired life, whatever it's, life still goes on. What a sad fact.
April 3, 2009
L.O.S.T
Finally, after one month we lost. But then, for a beginner, it's quite remarkable! And we don't even have a professional lesson. At least we had entered the semi-final. The third place indeed.
Accepting lost is never an easy task for me.
Next year I will be back! But then if there's still no professional trainer, then just give up.
Accepting lost is never an easy task for me.
Next year I will be back! But then if there's still no professional trainer, then just give up.
March 31, 2009
45 days
45 days..........................
Quite prepared to face it........
But I hope that day won't come...
Flow with life...................
Quite prepared to face it........
But I hope that day won't come...
Flow with life...................
March 11, 2009
Gloomy Results
My English 80
May Lee's English 97
My Physics 91
Hui Wei's Physics 96
I have to study hard during this holiday.
Please give me moral support. LOL.
But then I don't really have the motivation to do so.
It's like, I don't get anything even if I scored 100 in everything.
Help me, whoever seeing this. XD
May Lee's English 97
My Physics 91
Hui Wei's Physics 96
I have to study hard during this holiday.
Please give me moral support. LOL.
But then I don't really have the motivation to do so.
It's like, I don't get anything even if I scored 100 in everything.
Help me, whoever seeing this. XD
-- Marching --
Everyone knows that PBSM girls got the third place. But they also know that they were actually much better than KRS girls. So, what is the point of having this competition? To show that KRS girls exist? Haha, being unfair only makes others feel even more enraged. So please be fair, and give the honour to true winners.
Anyway, PBSM girls, please don't be sad. It's quite near to the fact that PBSM "would never" get the first place, and I guess you know why. Of course, I didn't train as much as you all, so it's not for me to comment on your performance. Oh, Christopher, I agree with you that PBSM boys don't have that much motivation. This is due to the disappointment in last year, in which our squad was suddenly dispersed at THE ELEVENTH HOUR. So, this is the major reason that boys have less ardour and passion than girls. But next year, lets recruit more members.
Lets go, PBSM, live to the fullest. Prove to them that we are not "二婆命" (Always get the second place).
Anyway, PBSM girls, please don't be sad. It's quite near to the fact that PBSM "would never" get the first place, and I guess you know why. Of course, I didn't train as much as you all, so it's not for me to comment on your performance. Oh, Christopher, I agree with you that PBSM boys don't have that much motivation. This is due to the disappointment in last year, in which our squad was suddenly dispersed at THE ELEVENTH HOUR. So, this is the major reason that boys have less ardour and passion than girls. But next year, lets recruit more members.
Lets go, PBSM, live to the fullest. Prove to them that we are not "二婆命" (Always get the second place).
March 10, 2009
Unfair
Puan Wan Rosna, how dare you deduct my marks even though I answered the questions correctly? You are indeed a bad teacher! DEVIL WOMAN!! And Puan Teresa (I don't care how you spell your name) are you following the marking scheme while marking the papers? You better follow it properly!
Argh, it's utterly bad to be in 4 Maju. All the teachers are irresponsible and simply teach students. This make us incompetent in examinations. Yet our principal expects us to get good results? For me, it's impossible, but for other smart people, especially Jing Yee, Lim Bei, Yasameen and Ngai Foong, it's possible. Argh, gotta learn something from some boys -- Don't try to be perfect. Actually I am not trying to be perfect, but these teachers really made my result fell.
Gonna study hard. And I don't know whether I should take or drop Accounts. Someone give an opinion please...............................................................
Seriously I don't know what to blog about. Life is MEANINGLESS. We grow up, reproduce and die!!! What's the point then?!
Argh, it's utterly bad to be in 4 Maju. All the teachers are irresponsible and simply teach students. This make us incompetent in examinations. Yet our principal expects us to get good results? For me, it's impossible, but for other smart people, especially Jing Yee, Lim Bei, Yasameen and Ngai Foong, it's possible. Argh, gotta learn something from some boys -- Don't try to be perfect. Actually I am not trying to be perfect, but these teachers really made my result fell.
Gonna study hard. And I don't know whether I should take or drop Accounts. Someone give an opinion please...............................................................
Seriously I don't know what to blog about. Life is MEANINGLESS. We grow up, reproduce and die!!! What's the point then?!
March 5, 2009
Results?
Additional Mathematics questions are not worth what I practised. It's just that question 10 (a) IS NOT TAUGHT BY TEACHER. Uggh, 4 Maju, why isn't there a good teacher?!
BM - B3
Physics - At most A2
BI - A2
Sejarah - At most A1
Sivik - At least B3
Biology - B3
Mathematics - A1
Moral - Do we have a B4? Or is it C4?
Chemistry - At most A2
Additional Mathematics - A1 (No 100% because of the un-taught question)
Wandering the empty yet full world.
BM - B3
Physics - At most A2
BI - A2
Sejarah - At most A1
Sivik - At least B3
Biology - B3
Mathematics - A1
Moral - Do we have a B4? Or is it C4?
Chemistry - At most A2
Additional Mathematics - A1 (No 100% because of the un-taught question)
Wandering the empty yet full world.
Aimless
Aimless again because I don't know what I have to do after exam. Feel like made for studying and passing exams.
Wanna ask everyone something, but then I don't think many people will see this. Does my presence have influence on your life? Meaning that will your life be different if you never know me?
I guess it's obviously not. 9.9 out of 10 people will say so. If you don't believe, just go and ask someone the same question. Or you can wait for 2 months and 11 days more, and you will find out the answer.
Wanna ask everyone something, but then I don't think many people will see this. Does my presence have influence on your life? Meaning that will your life be different if you never know me?
I guess it's obviously not. 9.9 out of 10 people will say so. If you don't believe, just go and ask someone the same question. Or you can wait for 2 months and 11 days more, and you will find out the answer.
February 17, 2009
不要轻易松手
哭是代表倦意
无聊只是因为
不愿到哪里去
忙碌只是借口
麻醉自己
麻醉自己
骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己
可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性 你要相信
我在努力
我不断提醒自己
爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美
要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好…好不好…
不愿在你的眼里
变得太渺小
害怕你的爱会减少
不愿让你看轻我
你太过重要
要证明我给的最好
无聊只是因为
不愿到哪里去
忙碌只是借口
麻醉自己
麻醉自己
骄傲只是逃避
想要说服自己
可以不依赖你
改不掉的任性 你要相信
我在努力
我不断提醒自己
爱自然就好
不要太刻意去完美
要求太高
不要让我独自承受
看着我说不要轻易松手
好不好…好不好…
不愿在你的眼里
变得太渺小
害怕你的爱会减少
不愿让你看轻我
你太过重要
要证明我给的最好
February 14, 2009
Cold
Feel so cold.........
Gonna abandon this blog......
I don't know what to write..........
Somehow, life is always that unfair........
I have been experiencing autumn and winter all the time........
Where's my spring?
Where's my summer?
Do you guys really think I love to study?
Definitely no.........
But I have no choice........
Gonna abandon this blog......
I don't know what to write..........
Somehow, life is always that unfair........
I have been experiencing autumn and winter all the time........
Where's my spring?
Where's my summer?
Do you guys really think I love to study?
Definitely no.........
But I have no choice........
February 10, 2009
January 22, 2009
Backlane
Lets prepare something as backlane. I might transfer school to SMK Taman Seraya. If you don't want me to leave, pray for me. I will also pray for myself too. And I know that not everyone likes me, so you don't have to pray if you hate me.
Helpless
Might be my last few days in SMKAB. If there's a point of return, maybe I shouldn't make so many troubles. Aikz, just because of ten-minute anger I ruined my whole life. Okay, if I am really done, lets pray for me that I die the next day.
Helpless, helpless. Worried, worried. No one can help me now, but still I want to thank Jing Yee for saying 'WE will stand up for you'. Although that seems impossible (Since not everyone concerns about me), but still it's a comfort to hear that. Jesus, Jesus where are you? Never really listenned to you before.
Helpless, helpless. Worried, worried. No one can help me now, but still I want to thank Jing Yee for saying 'WE will stand up for you'. Although that seems impossible (Since not everyone concerns about me), but still it's a comfort to hear that. Jesus, Jesus where are you? Never really listenned to you before.
December 11, 2008
守候
我能等你吗？
在那淡淡月光下
静静想你
我能等你吗？
在那熟悉的地方
轻唤着你
风里传来你的呼吸
云里映着你的笑意
林里的鸟相偎相依
我却孤寂
我等你回来
把那窗儿打开
向我依赖
我等你回来
带着纯真的风采
宛如小孩
衣上装满你的记忆
夜里的梦多么清晰
冰冷黎明只剩叹息
如何忘你
迷离的夜 飘响着无边境的旋律 在耳边旋绕不停
能不能 载着思绪的雨 带我找你
纵然是梦想也罢
宁愿寂寞 放弃自由
怎样也想抓住你的手
春夏秋冬 你的承诺
我会守候
__________________________________________________________
最近，我发现很多非常好听的歌曲都不是出名的歌手所唱的。相反的，知名度低，甚至是隐名歌手唱的歌曲，才是真正的余音绕梁。不是我对偶像偏激，但是我百听不厌的歌曲往往不是周杰伦、蔡依林等国际级歌手所唱的。就拿这首歌来说吧，连上载者都不知道其歌手姓名，却能成为某游戏的主题曲，实在是叹为观止。所以，不要只听偶像的歌曲，将耳朵张大，或许你会发现，你偶像的歌艺比起其他人，也只不过属于一般。
另外，歌曲并不只讲究好听，歌词有意义也是关键。比如说周杰伦的歌曲，因为有意义而被纳入考题，这对当事人的歌曲来说，是一种肯定。显而易见，听众也要求有意义的歌词。说了那么多，其实我是要诠释这首歌。哈哈！！
等待，是一种幸福吗？还是是一种折磨？我不太清楚。依稀记得我每一次的等待都不是等待恋人，而是等待车子。当然啦，我没有女朋友，怎样等待她呢？不过，很多连续剧里的情节，那些恋人多时没见到对方（有时候是其中一方失踪了），一见面就哭得泪流满面。或许，等待是痛苦的，但等待的结尾却是开心的，是吗？
在那淡淡月光下
静静想你
我能等你吗？
在那熟悉的地方
轻唤着你
风里传来你的呼吸
云里映着你的笑意
林里的鸟相偎相依
我却孤寂
我等你回来
把那窗儿打开
向我依赖
我等你回来
带着纯真的风采
宛如小孩
衣上装满你的记忆
夜里的梦多么清晰
冰冷黎明只剩叹息
如何忘你
迷离的夜 飘响着无边境的旋律 在耳边旋绕不停
能不能 载着思绪的雨 带我找你
纵然是梦想也罢
宁愿寂寞 放弃自由
怎样也想抓住你的手
春夏秋冬 你的承诺
我会守候
__________________________________________________________
最近，我发现很多非常好听的歌曲都不是出名的歌手所唱的。相反的，知名度低，甚至是隐名歌手唱的歌曲，才是真正的余音绕梁。不是我对偶像偏激，但是我百听不厌的歌曲往往不是周杰伦、蔡依林等国际级歌手所唱的。就拿这首歌来说吧，连上载者都不知道其歌手姓名，却能成为某游戏的主题曲，实在是叹为观止。所以，不要只听偶像的歌曲，将耳朵张大，或许你会发现，你偶像的歌艺比起其他人，也只不过属于一般。
另外，歌曲并不只讲究好听，歌词有意义也是关键。比如说周杰伦的歌曲，因为有意义而被纳入考题，这对当事人的歌曲来说，是一种肯定。显而易见，听众也要求有意义的歌词。说了那么多，其实我是要诠释这首歌。哈哈！！
等待，是一种幸福吗？还是是一种折磨？我不太清楚。依稀记得我每一次的等待都不是等待恋人，而是等待车子。当然啦，我没有女朋友，怎样等待她呢？不过，很多连续剧里的情节，那些恋人多时没见到对方（有时候是其中一方失踪了），一见面就哭得泪流满面。或许，等待是痛苦的，但等待的结尾却是开心的，是吗？
Random
It's near the end of holiday but I still haven't did anything meaningful. My brother just passed me tons of Form 4 and Form 5 books that seem boring. And I haven't start going for tuition classes. Anyway, please do give me details about splendid tuition centres such as Martin if you don't mind.
Besides, I want to change a new hairstyle. However, I can't think of a hairstyle that suits me the most and is S-H-O-R-T. You know, SMKAB will never allow students to keep trendy hairstyles, or else the teacher will cut your hair without mercy. So everyone, give me suggestions and I will repay your kindness if your suggestion works!
Seriously, I am out of ideas to write articles. And I am feeling bored because my life is almost the same everyday. Wake up, bathe, eat lunch (No breakfast at 12.00 p.m.), play PS2, watch TV, play computer and sleep. It's like I am a programmed human that does the same thing everyday. But I have nothing else to do.
Besides, I want to change a new hairstyle. However, I can't think of a hairstyle that suits me the most and is S-H-O-R-T. You know, SMKAB will never allow students to keep trendy hairstyles, or else the teacher will cut your hair without mercy. So everyone, give me suggestions and I will repay your kindness if your suggestion works!
Seriously, I am out of ideas to write articles. And I am feeling bored because my life is almost the same everyday. Wake up, bathe, eat lunch (No breakfast at 12.00 p.m.), play PS2, watch TV, play computer and sleep. It's like I am a programmed human that does the same thing everyday. But I have nothing else to do.
December 9, 2008
Asset Lost
I was arranging my certificates yesterday and I found my result slip for the first trial. I got 89.00 for my average out of 8 subjects, and got the SECOND place out of 200+ students. (Okay, not to show off, but that was the best achievement in my secondary school exams) Actually, I prayed a lot for it, at least that 'a lot' is a lot for me.
But I guess I won't achieve that high score anymore, because I haven't started reading nor going to tuition during holidays. Additional Mathematics and Accounts are new subjects for me, yet I am not preparing for them. So it's time to let go my ranking, I guess. Congratulations for Sook Shian, since she has bought a new COMPUTER and a book on Additional Mathematics.
Now that May Lee will go to Singapore due to ASEAN scholarship, so there will be less competitors in my form, but you know, SMKAB is never lack of competitors. I think it will be very great if I still can maintain my results as top ten. (That will take a lot from me, notably one-month-before-exam studies and one-day-one-prayer-for-one-month prayers)
Let me think twice, thrice or maybe many, many times before I go for tuition. I hate tuition, since it robs my playing time. And our principal always demand this and that from us, so there will be even less time for playing.
But I guess I won't achieve that high score anymore, because I haven't started reading nor going to tuition during holidays. Additional Mathematics and Accounts are new subjects for me, yet I am not preparing for them. So it's time to let go my ranking, I guess. Congratulations for Sook Shian, since she has bought a new COMPUTER and a book on Additional Mathematics.
Now that May Lee will go to Singapore due to ASEAN scholarship, so there will be less competitors in my form, but you know, SMKAB is never lack of competitors. I think it will be very great if I still can maintain my results as top ten. (That will take a lot from me, notably one-month-before-exam studies and one-day-one-prayer-for-one-month prayers)
Let me think twice, thrice or maybe many, many times before I go for tuition. I hate tuition, since it robs my playing time. And our principal always demand this and that from us, so there will be even less time for playing.
全国领袖研讨营
上个星期六到星期一，参加了研讨营。其实，还不是为了分数而去。不过，至少学到了剪纸，还算是收获吧！不过，得到了分数，我觉得很开心，因为明年我可以减少外出次数。（我就是那么现实，这是人人皆知的）
这个研讨营，我不避讳地说，并不如预期的成功，因为始终没有把“领袖”当成最终主题，反而着重于华文学会的管理和进行。我是觉得，除了甘征豪先生之外，其他外来讲师并无助于让营员真正地学习和了解“领袖”的定义。讲得好的反而是营长和副营长，可以很深入地讲解一篇文章。
Anyway, I am slow in typing Chinese, and I only type Chinese for literary articles. so I am switching to English. Sorry for any inconvenience caused. Well, the camp was not very good in punctuality, since some of the campers did not obey what the committee members said. Okay, enough for criticsims, and switch to compliments. The food was above average, and there's not many problems about in terms of cleanliness.
So, I will give score on this camp based on certain criterias. (Haha, I am a judge!)
Facilities: 7 / 10
- Everything is okay except the PA system.
Cleanliness: 8 / 10
- I don't see much rubbish on the floor.
Accomodation: 8 / 10
- It's already good to have such a big hall to sleep in.
Beverages: 7.5 / 10
- The third day's beverages pulled down the score.
Activities: 6.5 / 10
- Poor weather and boring lectures are the main drawbacks.
Overall score: 7.4 / 10
Anyway, I enjoyed this camp quite a lot, even though there are some drawbacks. I have made 17 friends and we worked together through the camp. Thanks to 韩非 members, you all gave me sweet memories!!
这个研讨营，我不避讳地说，并不如预期的成功，因为始终没有把“领袖”当成最终主题，反而着重于华文学会的管理和进行。我是觉得，除了甘征豪先生之外，其他外来讲师并无助于让营员真正地学习和了解“领袖”的定义。讲得好的反而是营长和副营长，可以很深入地讲解一篇文章。
Anyway, I am slow in typing Chinese, and I only type Chinese for literary articles. so I am switching to English. Sorry for any inconvenience caused. Well, the camp was not very good in punctuality, since some of the campers did not obey what the committee members said. Okay, enough for criticsims, and switch to compliments. The food was above average, and there's not many problems about in terms of cleanliness.
So, I will give score on this camp based on certain criterias. (Haha, I am a judge!)
Facilities: 7 / 10
- Everything is okay except the PA system.
Cleanliness: 8 / 10
- I don't see much rubbish on the floor.
Accomodation: 8 / 10
- It's already good to have such a big hall to sleep in.
Beverages: 7.5 / 10
- The third day's beverages pulled down the score.
Activities: 6.5 / 10
- Poor weather and boring lectures are the main drawbacks.
Overall score: 7.4 / 10
Anyway, I enjoyed this camp quite a lot, even though there are some drawbacks. I have made 17 friends and we worked together through the camp. Thanks to 韩非 members, you all gave me sweet memories!!
December 5, 2008
人生苦短
繁忙的时候，想要休息
渡假的时候，想到未來
贫穷的时候，渴望富有
生活安逸了，怕幸福不能持久
決定的時候，怕结果不如预期
细看明白了，后悔没下定决心
不属于自己的，常常心存欲望
握在手里了，怀念之前的轻松
生命若不是现在，那又是何时？
想要体会 一年 有多少价值，你可以去问一个失败重修的学生。
想要体会 一月 有多少价值，你可以去问一个意外早产的母亲。
想要体会 一周 有多少价值，你可以去问一份定期周刊的编辑。
想要体会 一天 有多少价值，你可以去问一个朝九晚五的职员。
想要体会 一小时 有多少价值，你可以去问一对等待相聚的恋人。
想要体会 一分钟 有多少价值，你可以去问一个错过火车的游客。
想要体会 一秒 有多少价值，你可以去问一个死里逃生的幸运儿。
想要体会 一小秒 有多少价值，你可以去问一个错失金牌的运动员。
人生苦短
既然错过了
某样东西
某件事情
某个人物
不需再回头
把眼光放在前面
或许
你会发现更好的
庆幸
自己当初没有选择那个
前方是绝路
希望在转角
今时是困境
安逸在未来
渡假的时候，想到未來
贫穷的时候，渴望富有
生活安逸了，怕幸福不能持久
決定的時候，怕结果不如预期
细看明白了，后悔没下定决心
不属于自己的，常常心存欲望
握在手里了，怀念之前的轻松
生命若不是现在，那又是何时？
想要体会 一年 有多少价值，你可以去问一个失败重修的学生。
想要体会 一月 有多少价值，你可以去问一个意外早产的母亲。
想要体会 一周 有多少价值，你可以去问一份定期周刊的编辑。
想要体会 一天 有多少价值，你可以去问一个朝九晚五的职员。
想要体会 一小时 有多少价值，你可以去问一对等待相聚的恋人。
想要体会 一分钟 有多少价值，你可以去问一个错过火车的游客。
想要体会 一秒 有多少价值，你可以去问一个死里逃生的幸运儿。
想要体会 一小秒 有多少价值，你可以去问一个错失金牌的运动员。
人生苦短
既然错过了
某样东西
某件事情
某个人物
不需再回头
把眼光放在前面
或许
你会发现更好的
庆幸
自己当初没有选择那个
前方是绝路
希望在转角
今时是困境
安逸在未来
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I did this just now. It's not 100% made by myself, I just put the words on the picture and save it. (I know it's lame but at least I bother to make one) Literally, the sentence mean "Even though the sky has feelings it will grow old, if the moon doesn't have hatred it will be round forever". I guess my translation ruined the original sentence.
Honestly, I have nothing to do right now. And I don't know what to type about. Ideas anyone?
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