Prayer

Suddenly, I feel like want to pray. It's really impossible for me to live without God. I was wrong to try to live independently. It seems that I really have to seriously accept Jesus as my savior, not just simply accept.

Dear Jesus,

It had been quite a long time since last I prayed seriously. My previous prayers are like not serious and just thinking of using God as a credit card. I knew that it was a sin to do so, but I just can't stop trying to live on my own without God. I was wrong, as I really can't stand it when problems keep coming.

Thank you for everything that you gave me, including my intelligence, even if I did not use it to full potential. At the same time, I did not appreciate it and try to hide it. I used to love reading books like encyclopedia, storybooks, novels. But a few months ago I nearly lost my aspiration to study due to the criticisms I receive.

It was truly a surprise to know that my grades improve a lot when I studied hard for the first trial. I felt that my efforts came to fruition and I was very happy at that time. Thank you Jesus, for giving me such a boost in my examination. However, I did something wrong during the second trial. It was one of the biggest mistake I ever did in my life. I cheated to get higher marks. I knew I was sinning but I really wanted to get high grades. Now I regret for doing such a foolish mistake. And I even denied it when Jing Yee posted my acts on her blog. I went mad and scolded her with bad words. Thank you Jesus, for making me realise my mistake, at least, our friendship did not vanish like bubbles.

I would like to repent every sins I had done in my life. Every single of them. My previous salvation was merely a joke, when I think of it. But this time, I want to be serious. I want to start a new life. I want to change myself. Thank you for sending friends to convince me to study hard again. They were like angels for me. I was being too realistic and materialistic these days until I made my public relationship went down straight. Jesus, please guide me to become a better person, please let me escape from the shadows of complaining and lamenting.

In Jesus' name,
Amen.