This is my last resort. Seriously, honestly, frankly, I hope this works. I had prayed for this, and this is the only chance I can somehow change my life. However, if God doesn't grant me what I want, I don't know what more can I say. Those who know me well will probably know what am I talking about.
Unfortunately, the possibility of success will only be a mere 15%, if 'miracle' is put aside. I hope God grants me a miracle.
K-N-O-W-L-E-D-G-E = 96%
H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K = 98%
A-T-T-I-T-U-D-E = 100%
L-O-V-E-O-F-G-O-D = 101%
The despicable me might put God aside once I get what I want. Since years I had been using God as a credit card -- to help crossing hard times. Sorry.
Showing posts with label Christianity. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Christianity. Show all posts
July 19, 2009
November 25, 2008
Prayer
Suddenly, I feel like want to pray. It's really impossible for me to live without God. I was wrong to try to live independently. It seems that I really have to seriously accept Jesus as my savior, not just simply accept.
Dear Jesus,
It had been quite a long time since last I prayed seriously. My previous prayers are like not serious and just thinking of using God as a credit card. I knew that it was a sin to do so, but I just can't stop trying to live on my own without God. I was wrong, as I really can't stand it when problems keep coming.
Thank you for everything that you gave me, including my intelligence, even if I did not use it to full potential. At the same time, I did not appreciate it and try to hide it. I used to love reading books like encyclopedia, storybooks, novels. But a few months ago I nearly lost my aspiration to study due to the criticisms I receive.
It was truly a surprise to know that my grades improve a lot when I studied hard for the first trial. I felt that my efforts came to fruition and I was very happy at that time. Thank you Jesus, for giving me such a boost in my examination. However, I did something wrong during the second trial. It was one of the biggest mistake I ever did in my life. I cheated to get higher marks. I knew I was sinning but I really wanted to get high grades. Now I regret for doing such a foolish mistake. And I even denied it when Jing Yee posted my acts on her blog. I went mad and scolded her with bad words. Thank you Jesus, for making me realise my mistake, at least, our friendship did not vanish like bubbles.
I would like to repent every sins I had done in my life. Every single of them. My previous salvation was merely a joke, when I think of it. But this time, I want to be serious. I want to start a new life. I want to change myself. Thank you for sending friends to convince me to study hard again. They were like angels for me. I was being too realistic and materialistic these days until I made my public relationship went down straight. Jesus, please guide me to become a better person, please let me escape from the shadows of complaining and lamenting.
In Jesus' name,
Amen.
Dear Jesus,
It had been quite a long time since last I prayed seriously. My previous prayers are like not serious and just thinking of using God as a credit card. I knew that it was a sin to do so, but I just can't stop trying to live on my own without God. I was wrong, as I really can't stand it when problems keep coming.
Thank you for everything that you gave me, including my intelligence, even if I did not use it to full potential. At the same time, I did not appreciate it and try to hide it. I used to love reading books like encyclopedia, storybooks, novels. But a few months ago I nearly lost my aspiration to study due to the criticisms I receive.
It was truly a surprise to know that my grades improve a lot when I studied hard for the first trial. I felt that my efforts came to fruition and I was very happy at that time. Thank you Jesus, for giving me such a boost in my examination. However, I did something wrong during the second trial. It was one of the biggest mistake I ever did in my life. I cheated to get higher marks. I knew I was sinning but I really wanted to get high grades. Now I regret for doing such a foolish mistake. And I even denied it when Jing Yee posted my acts on her blog. I went mad and scolded her with bad words. Thank you Jesus, for making me realise my mistake, at least, our friendship did not vanish like bubbles.
I would like to repent every sins I had done in my life. Every single of them. My previous salvation was merely a joke, when I think of it. But this time, I want to be serious. I want to start a new life. I want to change myself. Thank you for sending friends to convince me to study hard again. They were like angels for me. I was being too realistic and materialistic these days until I made my public relationship went down straight. Jesus, please guide me to become a better person, please let me escape from the shadows of complaining and lamenting.
In Jesus' name,
Amen.
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